Done like dinner.

Well, it's official.

This morning I told my supervisor that I'm going to decline the job offer.

I hadn't gotten the official offer in writing thursday or Friday, so that gave me the week and weekend to think about things.

Things that are going through my head include the logistics behind writing my national exam, learning how to drive my car, wanting to attend my graduation etc. These and a few other things were really weighing on my mind, and made me stress. Most of the stress came from the major logistics of getting myself situated here in such a short time.

Like I said to my supervisor, I wasn't expecting an offer, so I made plans this spring and summer, and to just up and expect to relocate without a whole lot of time to do so was hard.

So I decided that I'll come home. Study for my national exam ( which I need to pass in order to work out here, so VERY IMPORTANT), attend the APVC ( a big vet conference in Halifax in April.), glide this spring ( money that I forgot about), fly this summer ( money that I was factoring in ), see keith urban live in concert..., attend my graduation ( Isabelle will be extremely happy...), learn to drive my car ( because I can't), spend easter with my family, go to the 60 sqn ACR ( big parade in which my dad is stepping down and my sister is taking over). During this time, over the summer to be exact, Im going to look at job postings for the locality in Alberta, and plan on returning in September. ( oh yes, and I need to sign income tax papers and tend to my drivers licence, because it's expired...)

Before I was able to actually tell my supervisor that I was declining, she began to tell me about how the partners were okay with me going away for the summer. I was hoping to avoid knowing this and other details because I didnt want to have more stress from rethinking my decision.

So after I told her, she asked if returning to this clinic in september is something that interests me if I were to have a gauranteed job. I said most definately. I love this clinic. I love working on the horses. I love being a tech. But if I am stressing about all of this as much as I am, then maybe that's a sign that I shouldn't be here RIGHT now.

So yes. That's my situation. Took a lot of effort, but what's done is done. No regrets...yet.